Thank You From The Depths of Hell

Just seeing that little quip from the front of a greeting card a friend gave me not that long ago brings a big nostalgic smile to my face...

She was in a dark place and I was trying to cheer her up with a simple little gift; a bucket, a shovel, dollar store flip flops and directions to 'the beach' if I remember correctly. She was touched hence the above mentioned card that made me weep.

Well, hell is not where I reside but I can definitely see it from here! I can't ever remember a darker time in my life.

I'm about to fail at the most important thing I've ever set out to do and if I do, I'll be letting down the two most important people in my life. In the middle of all this I've been severely let down by several of the most important people in my life. What makes it even worse is that all of the hurt and disappointment stems from the best of intentions on my part. All the important decisions I've made in recent days have all blown up in my face. All of them were decisions I made with integrity and were designed to honor others. In fact I don't ever remember making any choices in a more selfless way. I'm still reeling and don't have the first clue what to do next...

There has been one bright spot in the midst of all the despair. Johnny Depp is making a movie right here in our little neck of the woods! Not only that but a great group of folks have been providing a wonderful, accepting, non-judgemental atmosphere for sharing in all the excitement. So, to Rod and Diane and Jenny and the rest of the Public Enemies - Columbus folk...

Thank you from the depths of Hell... The inside of the card reads: 'Somehow, "Thank you from the bottom of my heart" just didn't seem deep enough.' Those are my sentiments exactly. = )